Father's pain

Grandpa walk was suddenly, like the night sky of slip meteor, no sign of any and of reaction time. Hear the sad news of grandpa's death, also didn't return to god the father of whole body, like leaves as lost direction...

Grandpa died suddenly of cerebral haemorrhage, because of the gas, and cause.

Father and grandfather feeling is very good. On father's seven years old, grandma left grandpa a person walked. Grandpa the lonely buried in the bottom of the heart, a shit a urine father up. The reasonable and father have long learned to independence and strong, he knew a grandpa's hard, so all the more filial piety grandpa, to do everything possible to make old have a happy old age. The old man's most afraid of the cold, father gave grandpa in a brick build by laying bricks or stones a stove, can grandpa have not feel the warmth of his father to walk away. Father hate that, the more hate their coal stove......

Grandpa lives of the cottage from our new home is a five hundred m distance, is common and grandma live, father let grandpa moved into the new house to live, grandpa said a person living habits, won't move out. Father does not agree, can be stubborn grandfather insisted on oneself live, father ao however grandpa. Father know grandpa is reluctant to leave the cottage is because grandma. The old man spent most of a man, his father after up no renew marriage, at this point the father respected grandpa, so his father always taught us to do a loyal person. Father's heart is very fine, worry about grandpa live will appear what mishap, then arrange for me to make some company, who urges I should take good care of my grandpa's daily living. Even so, father still not trust, every night before sleeping, will be to grandpa lives where the turn around. Check the stove is safe; Get up in the morning to wake up grandpa, ask grandpa sleep at night cold cold. Time is long, formed a kind of habit, no matter from the rain, and not give up. The five hundred meters long path is like a root the grandfather and father thin red line tied together, a head of even the obedient son, a head of connecting stubborn father.

Grandpa alive like vegetables, he put most of the time on that a small garden. A vegetable garden was grandpa do systematic, YouMoYouYang. At first father would not consent to grandpa kind vegetables, looking at grandpa arrived old age also for busy family, and he has been no for grandpa did, was very guilty, feel sorry, grandpa. Although his father does not agree, can grandpa or idle don't come down for a long time, the father is the grandfather of approach. The default Vegetable field became a father of another care, no matter how hard working, father would take time to grandpa's garden, even have no time to help will let me go to help grandpa do vegetable garden. Thought is such a small garden play a very significant role, in the home life difficult time a few times to help his father over the hump, his father so very grateful to grandpa. Often thought of old age still can give home doing something useful, grandpa's heart is joy bloom. Sometimes the garden more food, grandpa will be the extra food free of charge to the neighborhood, a put around the folks, so grandpa in the village have been very good public praise. As the son of a father for grandpa was also the respect of the folks at ordinary times, what GouGou KanKanKeKe stumbles over the stumbling, neighbors will come to help in the first time, this makes the father was very embarrassed, always feel like has a invisible pressure.

The common saying say every family has a difficult to read, though the grandfather in the village reputation is very good, but in the heart of the father but unhappy. The pressure of the life sometimes let his father a breath, in a bad temper, still can borrow will be giving food to people to blame for grandpa, said grandpa doesn't spend time with others. But every time grandpa were silent, he is very understanding father, at that age with three children, life is not easy to give children even Chinese New Year and a nice dress to afford. Grandpa know father very hard, and don't want to add to the family of any trouble. In a quiet night, father and his temper, the tone expressed dissatisfaction. Practice grandpa Grandpa said nothing, but as usual returned to his own house, and different is the grandfather came back early.

That night, all as usual, all is quiet. I went back to the house for grandpa sleep, but found lying on the kang's grandfather was not I wake...... . In the father for just lost his temper is annoyed, suddenly the door burst open, looking at me and the appearance of the father has been sobbing like sensed the what, like crazy for the grandfather's place. Grandpa lay quietly on the kang, the body was stiff, no expression of pain, like fell asleep as... . The doctor told his father came, grandpa because gas poisoning cause cerebral haemorrhage, has been unable to save, prepare to oblivion. Father's tears as the flood of actually surged in, mother also suddenly collapsed on the ground... This day became a father of sad day.

People say that the good good, the good life is safe. But in my body is not. Grandpa take things easy life, hard life and haven't come yet and an old lady, and hurried away from us. Father like a baby crying loudly, came out and have never seen a father is so sad, crying that tore heart crack lung, inconsolable, for grandpa, also for myself.

Father in my left for a period of time, the spirit of people become trance up, many. Harper, He sometimes squat in the work of the garden a grandfather, looking at full park of the boom of weeds, talk of root smoke. Sometimes their a people close to grandfather lived in that little room, sit for half a day......

My grandfather left, everyone to grandpa's miss them into the heart, who does not want to lift this heavy topics. I really can't control his feelings, I forget grandpa's voice and smile, can't forget help grandpa's garden do the picture, and forget the rest tired when working grandpa help me do flute of appearance. In a day before dinner, the mother called me to have a meal, I said I want to grandpa, a words arise layer, everyone waves couldn't help crying out. Heard to father saw like us, like issue orders as let us stop crying and all information about my grandfather hid, said that after no longer allowed to cry. From then on, everyone rarely cry, but I always see the father took the grandpa photos secretly wipe the tears.

Grandpa died nearly twenty years. In the twenty years, father ever-present miss grandpa, in his father's mind always have a deep guilt and regret, make father often sleep well, eat bad rice. Often wealth of mind grandpa figure, father's heart will sharp pain up. Each time you take a vacation home, father always asked me to grandpa's grave to burn some paper. Every year at the 30 chenjiayuan, we will see grandpa home together for the New Year. First morning finish eat dumplings father a man put grandpa back I know father have a lot of words want to talk to grandpa said...